____tear my heart open; i sew myself shut

Saturday, May 21, 2005

200505/ friday

-to be a living testimony,
*FOR GOD.

daddy's leaving tomorrow morning for bangkok, hongkong and i forgot where. gonna miss you daddy! ):

PHEW! the week is finally over. that was one tough week. english paper one, english presentation, A math, E math and chinese. glad that i made i through and i thank God for helping me through this tough week :D english presentation was great! we didnt fumble. YAY! :D great job guys! training is alright. toned down training al little. haha. coach is being funny with us. lols. funny him. next week is recovery week. hope my leg gets recovered.

well, lets see. came back from TOOTS house for bible study. i'm glad i went. haha. we sidetracked so much. BUT it was a good sidetrack! xD heehee. did lots of thinking thats why i was rather quiet. had questions.
what authority does the bible have over us? are we believing in the "wrong" God since there are so many religions? how do we know what is the "right" God? what is my motivation in living? what would be my witness that i am a christian at this point of time in my life?
and i'm waiting for these questions to be answered.

guess i havent thought much. how strong is my faith? i don't know. but i am going to make it stronger. and i found paul inspiring since we were doing 2 timothy. he did all he could to preach God's word although he was usually rejected by many. he went to many area's doing all he could. he had such strong conviction and faith. its overwhelming. even when people stoned him and chained him up in jail, he was still praising God and worshiping him.

one day i want to be like paul. have a strong faith and be convinced. (: i'm going to be a living testimony for him. and im going to start right now.

{ tear my heart open }
12:26 am